Hello Everyone.

I sat up all night playing on the Internet looking at ways to make money on the Internet
WOW there are a lot of things out there...
How many are real and how many are scams are yet to be seen I guess..
Many of them Say money back guarantee. I guess we can test that theory...
I will gt back to you on this one...

TIME
I guess another issue I am having with this decease is time.. Time management time acknowledgement.
Last night went from midnight to five am in what seemed like an hour..
Time no longer has a constant. Things that i used to do in a short period of time seem to take forever.
I start several things at a time and then somehow hap haggardly stagger between them and hopefully get to them all.
I think one of the ones that bothers me the most is what used to be my office....
At one time i was mister organization.
A system , a place for everything and everything in its place...
Mr perfection, I had to have things done just so... neat and in order... Organized, categorized.
Everything fit in a box....
I remember being told in group that this was a sign of being an aviator.
We all shared that need to fictionally group everything and everyone....
We tend to snap quickly to put everything into a category so we can deal with it mentally...
NOW, when i look at that area all i can feel is overwhelm and frustrated and depressed...
There are papers from over a year ago, piles where i separated them..Waiting for that person to return to finish the job.
I just don't know where he went.....
I keep hoping he will wake up one day, and it will all come back...
I have made the decision to go over there and fix it countless times, got the trash can sat down, started sorting and then... hours go by and... piles are still there... some of it is gone but??????

I will keep trying, I can not give up. Maybe I can get it done some day.
Thank you Karen for being such an understanding wife ...
She is so awesome, I am truly blessed. I pray I don't put her through too much...

More tonight......