Berrys REALY???

There's me in the 80's...
Iran contras??? anyone remember those days?
South America was in the news a lot back then....

Hey, I found a new report on a UK ( united kigdom) site
news article on research on red berry's ans cognition

It gives all the research into red berries and their slowing down qualities...
Also mentions daily fruit consumption which is a standard in our home. We eat some type of fruit every day.
I was impressed to see that FDLIC where my wife works, has fruit bowls in place of candy machines !!!!
They are health conscious more so than even the military... I am glad she works there and has for the past 18 years...

I have been struggling this past week.
It appears that i am getting worse despite all my efforts.
I think driving will be the next thing i lose.
Eventually work will have to change its face as i am having increasingly more difficulty concentrating on my work.
I used to have so many options on what i could do..
These day's I am not sure what i will be able to do?
I don't want to give up, but i am going to have to adapt yet again...
I am trying to force myself to fight...
Some days i just want to lay down and sleep... But of course I can't...
I am trying desperately to get caught up on the bills after two solid months of losing money, ( I have lost over 900.00 cash in the past to months probably closer to 1000.00) credit cards lost and or being used online without our consent., having people use our credit cards on line forcing hundreds in bounced check fees * cards are attached to our bank accounts)
We even had an employee contact our clients and request they be put on w-2 and not 1099, which caused all my accounts to switch from 7 day to 45 day net....
I am just now getting them all back to where they where supposed to be...
I am hoping I can get access to the money now?
I realty hate not being able to pay people... And nothing I could say would help them understand as this is a unique business I have set up... I have buyers and providers and portals all set up under our Independent service organization and over 96 clients all sending us work via these 10 portals ( that act as go between/litigators for us and the buyers)
Everything goes well as long as my sub contractors follow teh contract rules..
My downfall has been not having a system to explain all the guidelines to my sub contractors BEFORE they make a  mistake that costs all of us a fortune.. I lost 5 contracts this year and am just now getting t hem all back after months of conversations with the clients...
Something as simple as the wrong words spoken in front of the wrong people, new contractors asking the wrong questions, people not showing or even bothering to call anyone to say they cant make it or will be late to people stealing from the end users!!!
I had one guy selling things on the site to clients in my name. When me or another sub contractor went on the next call to that end user, they asked where their (fill in the blank) was since they had paid for it??????
He also would keep the return parts and pretend to ship them out.... Steal parts money and whatever he could find...
He has warrant's out is several states now due to his bad habits...
I had one guy go home to get ready to go do 2 contracts, and then laid down and went to sleep and dd not show for two contracts in one day.... I lost both contracts for almost 60 days and just now got them back...
One of them I have for over 12 YEARS....
I know i should just do small jobs in the local area, but i am an entrepreneur and have been since i was 9.
I love having several people out there and finding ways to make them money..
I used to keep most of it and pay them the least I could , but changed all that 4 years ago and decided to share most of it and only keep a small percentage ( usually 10%)
I guess i should go back to 5 years ago when i paid a set hourly for everyone... But then i would have to maintain all their accounts and closures etc.... IM too old for all that now.
My fear is, I will fall into the deepest part of this rabbit hole, and not have a chance to share all this knowledge with anyone smart enough and brave enough to carry it on.
In 2008 everyone in my group was making 200-400 a day and I was making 800-1000 a day.
Then Obama got elected and that all went away rather quickly...
Jobs that paid 400 are now barely paying 165 and gas went from 1.79 to almost 4.00 a gallon..
Insurance and everything else has gone up and our rates have gone down...
I have had to spend hours and hours online finding contracts that pay more and getting them to agree to use one of the three portals i prefer...
I don't know how I can just let this die with me and not have someone to carry it on.....
It is not rocket science... and the money is good and the work can be difficult, but at 50.00 an hour what do you expect.. I have made as much as 100 an hour or more doing things no harder than flipping a switch, or typing on this keyboard while attached to CPE.   Simple roll outs, upgrades, voice over IP conversions puling cables, setting up pos terminals and so forth ...
I just cant understand why there are so few of us out here that can do this and why i cand find anyone here to train on all of it?
Most of my people can handle some of it , but no one seems to be able to handle all of it???
There I go rambling again... sorry...
Well the walk went well, Karen and i got a lot of media coverage and had a good time overall.
I do not know how much money we raised for Alzheimer's  but if it was anything, then it is a good thing..
I will attempt to put a link in here for the News video we where in...
We where also in the paper...
I was so surprised to hear the female reporter refer to my as an "amazing man"...
I tried realty hard not to cry, but did not succeed...
I am going to go search for mre info on slowing this thing down.... wish me luck!
I pray that all of you are spared the pain of what my family is going through watching me waste away...
May a cure be found soon so tht others may not suufer.
It is too late for me, but anything I can do to help the rest of the world will be my pleasure.
God bless you all

Ill be back!!!

where I am stage wise now

Stages of AD I am just sliding into stage 4.... CLICK HERE TO GO TO THE SITE

AS some of you may know, i used to be an avid reader.
I have been known to sit down with a book and not put it down other than to eat and sleep , until i finish it.
I could read a small book in a day and a larger one over the weekend..
Recently this past year or so) that has become difficult.
I have issues both understanding and remembering what i read.
It takes a lot longer to read it, and I tend to fall asleep while reading
Memorizing 45 pages of documentation each night for the next days contracts is no longer and option
I read through the best I can and underline important information, draw lines to dissect the project into steps that make sense to ME and staple them into small packages so I can don one step at a time (hopefully)
Thank God I can still , somehow, stumble through the Jobs using logic and manage to get everything done.
I am not as fast as i used to be, but i still am able to get it done somehow...
I am not sure how much longer I can do that. Each week seems to get longer and more difficult.
I have started sweating like i in the shower now when things start to get harry....
I can feel my stress building and my energy leaving me as each job challenges whats left of my mind.
I am still having difficulties with time management. I am usually late now to everything...
I have used about every excuse known to man, and so far it has been working...
Most of my clients have been using me for years and they are willing to put up with it since i always get the job done and usually better and faster than most.
I have been attempting to find people to teach all of this information and knowledge and experience to, but there does not seem to be anyone out there that wants to learn it and those that try don't seem to catch on?

It is a shame because a lot of money is out there waiting to be made buy someone that can just listen to me and learn.. Three years ago I was making up to 1000 a day working crews across Texas doing simple things like remodeling Whataberger stores and wall-mart POS systems,  Bank conversions, T-1, T-3 installs, upgrades, and extensions and test and turn ups, pulling cat 5 cable, setting up entire retail stores like The Children's place to name but one..
I could make up to 100,000.00 in a sale of health and life insurance benefits to a medium sized business like Abilene bus systems, and Small town hospitals..
Now, I am almost happy just to make 200-400 a day.. I would prefer to go back to 800 a day minimum so i can save up to take my awesome wife someplace besides Taylor county..
I would love to pay everyone i owe money to and add on a bonus for waiting so long so patiently.
The last two weeks I have put out more money than I have brought in buying supplies and paying gas and food for all the far off trips we have done, One tool alone was $240.00 but i have used it almost every day.
Now they want me to shell out 500-1000 for a cable certifier for an unknown number of future projects??
WE have two next week, and the lead from their company is going to bring his...
We will see how good it is, If we do well on the job, they might give us one, or sell it to us for half price???
I don't know when i can afford that much since i want to pay my contractors all off first,
Shelling out this much money for something considering i might not remember how to use it next week is problematic at best..
I have not decided yet what to do...
I pray each nite that I can find someone to pass whatever knowledge is left in my brain before it is too late,.
40 years of technical training and experience and it is all going to be gone.
One part of my Air Force training was over 5 million dollars, I can only imagine what the other 24 years cost...

I am noticing a new feeling in my head.
It almost feels like I can feel it shrinking...
My ability to fall asleep in less than a minute has also increased, bad news, it happens while I'm standing up, sitting down, eating, watching TV or movies, reading and even typing...
I have been able to stay it off while driving, but I'm not sure how much longer..
I am truly dreading not being able to drive!!!

I am getting one of those headaches so i will stop for now, it Will take an hour to proof read this so....
TTFN TTYL.

Frank

Stages of AD I am just sliding into stage 4....<--Click here to see the Seven stages and where I am at 4

Last chance for one medication solanezumab to finish?

12/6/2011 Posts: 1319

From Alzheimer's Daily News: (Source: Bloomberg Business Week) - For millions of people suffering from Alzheimer's disease, an experimental drug from Eli Lilly & Co. may now be their last hope for treatment. Pharmaceutical giants Pfizer and Johnson & Johnson pulled the plug Aug. 6 on their joint development of a similar Alzheimer's therapy, after that drug failed to show any benefit in two late-stage studies. Lilly has said it will release its findings by the end of September. Company executives warn that a successful outcome for the drug, solanezumab, is a long shot. After years of research, a cure or even a treatment to slow the progression of Alzheimer's remains elusive. Little is known about what causes the disease and efforts to alter its course are littered with failures. The Pfizer-J&J drug that failed earlier this week, called bapineuzumab, and Lilly's both target plaque that builds up in the brains of Alzheimer's patients that some believe may be the cause of the disease. Lilly's drug targets the floating plaque while the Pfizer-J&J drug goes after the deposits of plaque. There may be other factors as well, such as the over development of a protein called tau. The only other therapy on the immediate horizon that has shown success against the illness in mid-stage human trials is Baxter International's Gammagard. The product is an expensive, relatively scarce treatment derived from donated blood plasma that replaces antibodies in people whose immune systems can't protect them from infection. Results on whether it could slow or stop the mind-robbing disease in a final-stage study may be available next year. Go to full story: http://www.businessweek.com

Second-hand smoking damages memory

Northumbria University study:

Second-hand smoking damages memory


Date posted: September 12, 2012


Non-smokers who live with or spend time with smokers are damaging their memory, according to new research from Northumbria University.

The findings, published in the latest online edition of the journal Addiction is the first study to explore the relationship between exposure to other people’s smoke and everyday memory problems.

Dr Tom Heffernan and Dr Terence O’Neil, both researchers at the Collaboration for Drug and Alcohol Research Group at Northumbria University, compared a group of current smokers with two groups of non-smokers – those who were regularly exposed to second-hand smoke and those who were not.

Those exposed to second-hand smoke either lived with smokers or spent time with smokers, for example in a designated “smoking area,” and reported being exposed to second-hand smoke for an average of 25 hours a week for an average of four and a half years.

The three groups were tested on time-based memory (remembering to carry out an activity after some time) and event-based memory (which refers to memory for future intentions and activities).

Researchers found that the non-smokers who had been exposed to second-hand smoke forgot almost 20% more in the memory tests than those non-smokers not exposed. However, both groups out-performed the current smokers who forgot 30% more than those who were not exposed to second-hand smoking.

Dr Heffernan said: “According to recent reports by the World Health Organisation, exposure to second-hand smoke can have serious consequences on the health of people who have never smoked themselves, but who are exposed to other people’s tobacco smoke.

“Our findings suggest that the deficits associated with second-hand smoke exposure extend to everyday cognitive function. We hope our work will stimulate further research in the field in order to gain a better understanding of the links between exposure to second-hand smoke, health problems and everyday cognitive function.”


http://www.northumbria.ac.uk/browse/ne/uninews/second-handsmoking 

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OK OK I am alive, It has been a long week.
I worked two , or three??? Long days this week.
I had a bad day and a good day, all the rest are unmemorable I guess?
This is the first week I can not remember what i did most of the week...
Thank the lord that i have a calendar cloud called airset that we all use for personal and work appointment's
Otherwise, I am pretty sure i would not know what the heck we where doing most of the time and I would have to stop working..
I am so glad I can still drive, and pretty much take someone with me everywhere..
If i can't seem to remember how to drive, or it gets to late in MY day, i can just get them to take us home...
We use GPS and maps android applications along with messages from my Airset every hour on the hour along with all the alarms in my android to keep me focused...

This weeks newest things to change  i can think of?  the anger mode...
This week I seem to be able to suddenly get in a bad mood for no apparent reason..
Being an analyst, i tend to analyze everything to death... But these have no shape or form they just.... come... no rhyme, no reason , they just show up... I fight them the best I can and tell myself it will be OK.....
I do not remember tasting any coconut all week? That might be contributing to the decline I feel i am going through.
I am praying it is transitory and that I am not going to hasten my journey down the rabbit hole too soon!
We had a special event this week. We had the art walk here in Abilene especially held for us this week.
I was there early and stayed late...
I remember parts of it. I m glad Karen was there to be with me...
Purple everywhere, cake walk, music and a lot of work is pretty much all I remember... But it was nice to have a bunch of people there to help raise funds for our cause.

The walk to raise awareness is next week and i hope it goes well.
I have still only raised $35.00.......
I keep hoping someone out there cares....
Keep thinking I am worth more than that, praying that the very people that are looking and not helping are not the next victims of this nightmare that never ends...
I have to remember to tell the ONE person that donated thank you...
And Thank Kristy for  being so sweet, especially since I was such an ass to her in 1986...
I keep forgetting....
I felt really close to a fellow "victim" the other day.
A Lady named Libby that is in our group. I understood everything she was going through and oddly it made me like her more??? People kept giving her tasks that would require both memory and responsibility for something imperative, both things they should not even consider...
Even at an Alzheimer's art walk, members of our own group don't seem to "get it"...
We I get it..
Don't hand us anything you ever plan to see never mind find again..
If it absolutely needs to get done, don't ask us to do it and then walk away
chances are, we will forget to do it, and you will get either angered or upset or frustrated with us, and we will only get hurt and depressed, even though you should have known better than to do it.
We appear outwardly to have it together , but we DON'T..
Some days the simplest of things is a challenge and can wear us out quickly...
We love our grandchildren and can hold them all day and we are fine..
Giving us more than one direction at a time and walking away will only result in your disappointment and our depression and frustration...
I wish there was a way to just turn on a switch and let you fell what we feel..
take my brain right now .. am fighting to concentrate so i can type this.
As a result, my typing as frighteningly slow and inaccurate and my words are not even close to what I'm thinking, but i settle for what i can get on the screen that can at least be legible..
I thank GOOGLE for making the red line under all my obvious booboo's so that i can simply right click and fix them...
of course. on nites like tonight that is going to rake about 40 minuted since most of these words are written in something that looks like code lol.
I wish Kenzie was here, she could fix it for me( reference to a TV show we watch)...

Anyway  have to go drive our daughter to her other house

I'll be back???
maybe??
If i remember lol.....


May God bless you and watch over you and your loved ones and protect you this night
my no one you love and care about come down with this nightmare tonight, or any other night...

Frank


Tell them to join this blog lol
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Whos is this and what is he doing

Here I am back in the 90's ; looking young with no facial hair
Those where the days o photographic memory and learning a new language every 60 days..
Combat always kept me on my game.
The stress and adrenalin was addictive...

You could always tell the new people at the pre-mission  briefings because they where the ones that looked stressed lol. trying to memories word and codes of the day, trying to remember the SAR plans primary, alternate and tertiary. I miss it all for some reason... You would think after 4.5 years of combat and combat support missions I would not miss it...
But there is something about the comradery, the highly trained crews executing the checklists, the sense of satisfaction when we complete whatever mission they send our way.
The team in sync everyone on the same page and getting back to base to debrief then go for dinner or explore whatever country , state , city they sent us to THIS time. Even Tent city during combat has memories.
My favorite one was at Alain U.A.E .where everyone set up something special to them even a Foreign legion club. movie theater, recreation center, shoppet ( 7-11) WE had hooch's and tents and even build a cub, we even had  MASH tent (the swamp)....
It was wonderful to see all the unique buildings our fellow Military comrades built from scrap wood sweat and love for home...
The fastest growing building was of course the church.
BELIEVE the old adage, there are not atheist in the fox hole!!

I think i will look for one of my boxes of military memories, locked up since I started therapy again for PT SD...

Well it is late,
I had a very difficult week. More bad days then good..
Thank God for the people that helped me all week
Sorry i missed the support group. I was too far away at work to get back..

I hope my good days start coming back more often..
I am not ready for stage three...

Love everyone! Jesus told us to love everyone and love our enemies like we love ourselves..

I got upset today because, sometimes, I fell like everyone still expects me to be nice 24-7 and never be allowed to express any negative feelings without being chastised..

I would end this all myself now, and save everyone the problem of putting up with me, but I am not ready
I know I am going to get worse, and pray i don't get abused when i hit stage three because i don't know whats going on and will probably be in a nasty mood most of the time rather than once every few months..

Even Jesus lost his temper in the temple destroying peoples things and kicking them out of his fathers house for casting Lott's.. And he is perfect.... So, me not being Mr perfect 24/7 is probably an unreasonable expectation....

Squirrel....
Nite

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IM just sayin....

I was so depressed to look at my account, realizing I have over 500 friends and none of them not even one, donated even a penny to this cause???

I remember when we where in the military how we raised so much money for so many causes, not because we knew anyone that actually suffered from any of  the related causes, but simply because it was...
The right thing to do....
Now, we re all grown ups, and we do ... nothing?? Seriously?
If i had a penny, for every dollar I donated to all of you and your causes and your birthdays anniversaries your children and grandchildren, my god children,  weddings, not to mention lunches, dinners, drinks at countless bars and hotels, bailed you out of jail, paid off your car payments, paid your towing, bailed you out of jail, bought groceries for you when you where broke, took you entire family out to six flags, paid your utility bills, paid for your wedding, your mothers funeral, etc, , bar fines.. and on and on and on over the past 45 years and now I have a cause and I am dying from it, and I don't even get one red cent for it?
And it is not like it will help ME. I am probably too far gone for it to help ME, But GOD PLEASE let it help someone else, and their family and perhaps spare them the torture that myself and my family are going through and will continue to go through until this damn thing kills me at some unknown point in the future.
It is not like I'm asking for your bear and cigarette money...
A frigging dollar for Pete sake... one dollar from each of you would be $500.00 which is TWICE what my goal is.
I bet my old friends like Susan King won't take the time. Now that shes a big time Senator, she does not have time for us little people any more...
I remember the really cool sweat fun loving Susan when we where all in ACT together doing the man of la'mancha in 1995.  Her and her daughter where always nice to my Son Damon and I and it was a joy to speak with them.
Now, when I see her, she is much to busy to be sociable...
I see her at the philharmonic I Danced  next to her at the Stepping out for Memories 2011 where i won the Dance contest right next to her and she did not even acknowledge my existence...
Ah my Dulcinea....
Anyway ..., SQUIRREL !!

I hope you can sleep tonight knowing you have a $1.00 and did not donate it to this worthy cause.
I pray that you and or your family and loved ones don't suffer from this dreadfully slow killer because Karma decided it was the right thing to do....

I'M just saying....

Have a nice night

Unpleasant dreams!!!!!!!

click here if you have a sudden bought of conscience...

Anyone out there care?

This is the main reason I am so depressed today...

http://act.alz.org/site/TR/Walk/TX-NorthCentralTexas?px=6660739&pg=personal&fr_id=1540

IM ALIVE!!!

Hello everyone,
Yes I am alive...

 It was a long week,
I am wondering if i was trying to kill myself or notI had three days there where i did not sleep much if any.
Long days..
I am trying to work as many hours as possible to get caught back up on bills and so forth.
I worked an average of 22 hours a day for like three days and then lost track of time..By thursday I had to have KAren walk me from teh van to the house.
I did no0t get to work on Friday as it was recuperation day...
I really had a rough day Thursday, I could not concentrate on pretty much of anything. I had one drop that was kicking my but, it was about 140 in the ceiling where I was running cab;e and buy the time i got to punch the jacks i had to punch them 5 times each...
Karen had to go find two contractors and scream at them to go help me or I not have ever finished??
I was on hold for almost 3 hours for the clients help desk, so that gave us time to make everything look pretty... We got everything cleaned up and out to the Van and I finally got home so Karen could help me out and help me walk to the bed... NO movie night this week lol..
I adore my Karen... I pray she can handle the years ahead...

Next week we have a parade , then the mud run then?? I don't remember, but i know it is going to be busy for the next 4 weeks , so watch for us all over Abilene if your a local!! There is the art walk the parade etc..  We wil be there for all of it God Willing!

I have been dabling in webpages for the past three weeks and have made a few of them
So far they have not brought in any money.. we shall see..
If they do ill let you know...

I finaly got to game last night and played a few with my Clan The Rotten to The Core clan...
It was nice. I actually finished first in 12 one game and everyone said GREAT GAME EGORE ( my gamer tag) It was nice.. It was nice to have a good few hours... Sometimes i feel like im dying slowly, I can almost feel teh life drain from me..
I wonder how much longer...
Some days are bad days and nothing seems to help.
We just try to get through the day and hope tomorow is a God day...

I am starting to shake a tittle more and it is becoming more noticeable...
I wonder if Lewy body is in my future???

I seem to be having more digestive issues this month than normal as well along with allergies.
The heat wears me out so fast,. I am glad the cool weather is ahead...

I feel a nap comming on...
I pary all of you are doing well.
I pray we have a good election and the future of our country is going to improve...

Nite