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Thursday, April 28, 2016

Sundowners...

I get sooo tired and eventually crash and burn every day...
Just woke up on my desk....
it stated around 4 earlier in my disease...
now; its starts around 3.....

some day, I guess I just wont get up??
Taking a combat nap before i go pick people up...

Laters........................................................................................click


How many people know what THAT symbol is?
Not many I would venture...

HELLO!!
     I have been away for a year sabbatical.
During my year;
 I have had a few strokes,
 few heart attacks,
fallen, countless times..
I have been ill quite a bit,
BUT,
I am still kicking!!
Last years Alzheimer's walk was nice, went with my wife and Grand children the day before to prep the area.
My Awesome wonderful beautiful Wife Karen and I are both on the planning committees for the walk and the Art auction. ( Stepping out for memories)
We stay as active as my health will permit.
Along with all that I also coach
Tennis... Fun, but exhausting..

WORK....
I have not been to any of my "other" jobs in quite some time now.
I am semi retired to the point of not working with the exception of an occasional Client Like Merry Mckenna And her collection of Moose Cafe's, since she is a good friend and no one can understand her needs as well as I can.
The big companies don't get it....

errors in this blog.........
( if you read my blog, you should know i am in who knows what stage of Alzheimer decease and spieling, grammar, and staying on subject, is a luxury, not a given)

The Future????
I am planning to return to do some contract work this summer.
I may take a grandchild with me?
one of them anyway..
Teach them responsibility and work ethics, customer service etc..
I had hoped to train one of our children to take over my companies when I retire, however, there does not seem to be a chance of that now...
Young people (under 50 now) these days want to work FOR someone, but don't want to actually work, be responsible, follow directions, read contracts, be on time, meet the terms of a contract.
So, instead, they work for less money, work longer hours, have no benefits, quit their jobs and change them often, and still ask  us for money almost every month...
So, I am looking to the Grand children now , in hopes of a better future for them than there parents and so forth..
It amazes me that My wonderful wife can work at the same place for 22 years, (and is still working there now)
I managed to stay in the Air force for 25 years and government contractor for 45 years now...
But these young people cant stay at the same job for a year or two??
Never mind 20 and retire...

As I progress down the Rabbit hole, i will not remember a lot of this stuff that took me 50 years to learn.
I still receive 40-50 calls a day and countless emails and text messages for contract work ALL OVER THE WORLD..

iT IS FRUSTRATING TO TURN THEM ALL DOWN, ESPECIALLY THE ONES FOR 200.00 AN HOUR.

  OPTIONS...
   I still have my insurance license, however, health insurance and life insurance has gone into the twilight zone..
It used to be so easy to sell it.
People need it,
its a good idea to have it.
OBAMA made it mandatory,
but it is still like trying to pull teeth!!!
people ask,
you tell them how much and..
crickets...


What in the world???
I am  "supposedly" one of the top technologists Consultants/contractors in the country, and some of my clients have been using me for many years;
 yet,
some of them have gotten ridiculous about trying to get stuff for...
wait for it...
FREE???
WHAT
Seriously?
 Everything I have to pay for is going UP,
not DOWN???
How can they expect things for free and then raise my rates???
I wonder if the DRUG epidemic in our country has taken a serious toll on our people??/ IN more ways than one....
Commercials today seem to reflect that,
YouTube videos, for sure...

9 year olds getting arrested in elementary school playgrounds for selling hard core narcotics, alimentary school kids breaking in and destroying high school property in groups..
Teen age pregnancy rates going up frighteningly high nation wide..
Assault rates going higher then ever????

Maybe my mind slipping away will be a good thing???
Maybe I wont have to watch as our country slides down the poop shoot?

A cure???
There is supposed to be a few hopeful cures out there.
My coconut oil and other techniques i using are helping me progress slower, but.. I still feel the drain, I can fell my mind going every day...
It is a frightening change to go from remembering everything I see and hear to forgetting to pay the water bill and having it get shut of, again...


MY journey so far... Today...
Some days I get so overwhelmed i just simply lay down and take a nap..
some days the headaches are so bad I just want to find a dark hole...
IM getting grumpy and impatient, and I get confused more often now.
sometimes I can not figure out what certain people are talking about, no matter how hard I try...
Seriously? I used to be the " go to guy" for everyone..
Now i'm like WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU TALING ABOUT?

I used to speak and understand as many as 16 languages, some of them very well and I even wrote in many..
Now not so much..
I can struggle through English, Spanish, Russian German...
Maybe  some french and Italian..
ABOUT 8 WORDS IN aRABIC NOW?? WOW I WAS FUENT AT ONE POINT
ABOUT 10 IN Korean, ( ODD CONSIDERING I WAS THE LIASON IN gulf WAR)
Half my family spoke Hebrew/Yiddish when I was growing up..
I can not seem to remember much of it now???

German i get to speak now and then
and Spanish now and then
Russian AND German with friends on line GaminG.


COPING...
I am an Xbox gamer
my two common gamer-tags are RTTC EGORE A and MIB BOSS
I have a few others, but they are my alter ego gamer tags and i don't speak on them.. EVER.. my chance to game with other Friends and see if they talk smack about me behind my back lol..

Our grandchildren occasionally play with us online, but they have their own friends they like to game with so...
I have about 150 friends i've gamed with for about 8-9 years so I have a choice to go to.
I am primarily a first person shooter, call of duty, Tom Clancy Rainbow six, and " the Division"
however, I also play other games with the wife like, Diablo III ( both versions) Sherlock Holmes, and a bunch of family games lke family game night and its collection monopoly etc..

Other things that make life better???
I have a few online brain stimulating sites that I will hae to go look up and post on here.

Music helps me a lot
playing it singing listening to it etc..
The more i play and sing and dance then better I seem to feel and think...
My wife can no longer dance with me so, I have to go with her to chaperon dances so that I can line dance lol...

I SO wish I could get back into the Acting, singing , dancing, musician, comedian, on stage theater again, and even do another TV thing..
Major movies production would probably kill me, but i could do a T series lol..
Walking dead maybe??
I was asked to interview for a few parts for two of our favorite shows, but, before I could make it, the shows canceled :(

I have not been on stage in a play since Harvey in 1998 At ART.
And Ghost writer just before that,
Have not done ACT since??? Man of lamancha other than designing lights for Jesus Christ supper star, and building sets with mr Munchenk..

 I realy miss doing theater in Germany and England..
Those where some of the best memories of my younger life..
New York and California  was always so darn competitive...
and back stabbing...
Doing that movie in England was fun..
I don't even remember the name of it now..

I have a guitar now and a keyboard, I really need to get batteries for the keyboard and play my guitar, ..
It is acoustic, so no heavy rock..
my Electric guitar needs repair....
I bought it back in 1963 so, it needs tuner key and some tlc..

Health???
my vision is going, so i better get on the ball...
I have a laundry list of illnesses now
but i take it with a grain of salt


BR-T RANCH and NANNA'S FARM!!!!!
We are raising chickens some for egg laying and some to eat later..
Rabbits, buy default, someone gave us four, did not tell us they where all females and all pregnant
now two died trying to hold in their babies, and we now have two with 6 babies....


And we started a sheep ranch two years ago... ( BAR-T Ranch)
started with 4 lost one to wild dogs, put up a better fence, now we had 22 of them, 13 are newborns two months ago..
We will finally be selling some this year and maybe breaking even??

Well, it is time to get bring lunch to my awesome wife..
I was too ill yesterday. I think i am going to try it today??
We have a function tonight, however, I am not feeling very well so, it is touch and go weather we will actually be going??

Love you all!

Squirrel......