It would appear that i pushed myself too hard last week. I paid for it all weekend and this morning.
i also got my flu shot Friday and of course it made me sick all weekend...
I have not had the wherewithal to even begin to type utill today/
I had an awesome visit from my friend trey this weekend and it raised my spirits.
My best friends Family suffered the loss of a loved one last week, and i was not healthy enough to make the trip to show my respects, this plunged me into depression.
We have been friends for fourty years now and they are more like my family then friends...
The good new is I had a new care giver that was also helping me with work.
She has 8 years experience with AD and was instrumental in my getting work done last week...
It is getting VERY difficult for me to do some jobs, I don't know how much longer I can keep this up?
I get people calling me all day all week long because they can't find anyone dedicated like I am or determined. It would appear that other techs and field engineers in this area only want to do the minimum and then just split????
What ever happened to integrity and self pride?
I like the work most of the time.
some days i just want to go back to bed.. OK most days LOL
The pain is worse over the last week.
I had no tramidol for about 4 days and can't seem to get caught up on anything
I managed to finally make a support group meeting, but only the second half..
I must admit seeing others further down the rabbit whole depresses me..
First because i care about them and second because it makes me self actualize my future..
I hate to say my mom hot spared most of this because cancer took her before she got past stage 5...
But somehow it seems God gave her a break.
She was fine on Friday, went to er on Sunday and died on Wednesday Christmas eve....
I dislike the holidays even more now.
Originally because of the commercialism of it all, each year we plunge ourselves deeper and deeper in debt because we have to buy love from our friends and family via gifting,.
If Johnie next door gets a better present then his family MUST love hm more
Bull pucky....
We have forgotten what it is all really about... So it depresses me more...
My wonderful wife has been awesome about taking care of me and putting up with me..,
My new caregiver assistant Crystal is also taking good care of me.
I hope some check's come in and clear soon so i can pay everyone..
I am going to have to take them someplace to cash them now that my bank holds all checks going into my businesses accounts for up to 10 days.....
ACH deposits seem to be taking a lot longer now s well.They used to only take 2 days, now they can take up to five.My ability to sit this long and type is also diminishing,..
It wears me out mentally and physically. especially with all my spelling and programmer errors.
Thank God for spell check LOL...
I am getting tired, so il stop for today.
If you love someone, tell them NOW they or you may not be here tomorow...
And then you will spend the rest of your life wishing you had..
God bless you all
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