Hello everyone,
One side effect of having this desease and writing a blog, is to remember, i have this blog lol....
I dont have anyone reminding me, so i only write in it when it comes to mind so to speak...
I receive alz newsletters from our local group that my wonderful wife and I are a member of and once a month from the national org news letter and as a former intern I get the Johns Hopkins news letter as well.
Sometimes I wish i would have actually finished my dream of becoming an MD. All those years of studying and working weird shifts for nothing. But i did have a lot of wonderful experiences in there mixed up with depressing ones lol. I just don't have that professional detachment required.I get to close to patients and take everything too personal. When one of them does not make it i take it personally. That time they unplugged our patient in New Mexico was the last straw for me. He came in with respiratory distress, they made mistakes, punctured his lung, sent him into cardiac arrest, put him on life support then unplugged him when they could not find next of kin or insurance proof.. Only to have them arrive 12 hours later and sue the hospital.... I walked out and never went back... There where way to many incidents where i lost my temper and over reacted to things as well since i could not detach myself from the patients.. Specifically domestic violence. so, I guess it is a good thing i went on to fly airplanes instead lol and eventually branch out to all these other weird things i do.. A propensity for languages , communications, computer and networking seems to be a strong point as well as logistics for me. My pleasures are acting , singing , dancing, performing arts of any kind playing any musical instrument, entertaining , being on stage or in the movies has always been where i am in my realm. I also love online gaming, specifically first person shooters and role playing games. strategy games. I also enjoy solving mysteries. we watch every type of crime and mystery show there is and I can usually figure it out before the second commercial lol.. I love insurance because i understand it and why we need it.. my weakness is understanding why everyone does not have it and how people can say no???
I have seen so many people suffer as a result of not having it and when they try so hard to justify why they dont have it all I hear is static..... it makes no sense to me...
anyway...
My health is not doing so well..
I have had some sort of issue from my throat to my but for about three months now.
I had my three year colonoscopy a hile back and have not been the same since...
I don't know if he infected me or what? but i had to take 5 antibiotic pills a day for 15 days that made me dizzy and nauseous and made it hard to drive, no dairy and no alcohol for 15 days ad well. alcahol not that big a deal, but my god half of what i eat has dairy in it...
well thatw over and now i had a CT scan and a bunch of blood work and so forth
they found abnormal cells in my duodenum so its more tests after new year..
I am at a loss since they where just in there a few months ago??
anyway... I feel like I swallowed a gerbil..
I seem to have constant diverticulitis and I.B.S. spastic colon, so that makes for interesting travel...
I cant swallow diet coke my favorite drink now for some reason... I think it is the bubbles??? I think i'm allergic to my tooth glue?
so old age and ad is not being nice to me lol.
I ran out of my arracept today and I pray my doctor can get me some since tricare said it will take until January 4th for mine to get here...
I love my Karen, but she forgets I have alz and expects me to call and order it when i run out. She said, i told you last week, i'm like, OK... um honey, I have Alzheimer s... remember?? that's what the medicine i ran out of is for... God bless her she is getting old too . She is so wonderful and I love her with all my heart. i had them put it on an auto refill today so that neither one of us will have to remember lol.
The holiday's are coming. I can't help but wonder if this is my last Christmas that I will remember?? and even If i will remember it. I vaguely remember last Christmas..
I have hated this season since I was 9.
I was taken from my mother on my 9th birthday and did not see her for almost a year. that first Christmas i spent alone in an orphanage. No presents, no songs, nothing.. three hots and a cot... All the other children had paces to go but me. Every Christmas after that until i got to go home I received girls toys because my Catholic name was Francis not frank. and people did not know that Francis is a boy and Frances is a girl so i got made fun of and got dolls and dresses for Christmas every year.. then, in 1997 my mother died on Christmas eve three hours after people burned my bar to the ground..... so no i don't like Christmas very much to begin with..
add the over commercialization over the past 20 years. now , every year we try to outdo the year before.
Harry potter had a good example of that on one of their movies where the little fat brat complained about having less than he had the year before yadda yadda... it is supposed to be about Jesus not money...
We spend too much money, put our self in horrible debt that we struggle to get out of for the rest of the year for what??
Buying material things for people is NOT LOVE, it does not take the place of a hug, holding them and telling them you love them forgiving them their transgressions, sitting with them and listening to them praying for and with them. sharing the word and meaning it. I dont know what happened to this country.
I pray i make another year on earth and know who I am.
I pray i get to see my children again before I forget who they are and who I am.
I pray I don't suffer a long painful death.
I love unconditionally and wish someone could love me the same way.
I miss relaxing
I miss having a cup of hot tea every nite before bed and at 6pm English style tea time..
I miss my mother beyond words.. we where a team,. frick and fack. Karen is so much like her perhaps i did marry my mother lol... they say men tend to seek out women that remind them of their mothers...
every now and then Karen gives me that look, the o\look only my mother ever managed to give me lol...
she shares her food the same way, and acts a lot like her she even likes the same food as my mom. kind of odd.. I did not know any of that when we met and fell in love, it all came out over the past 4 years.
I am so happy the lord blessed us with her 10,000.00 worth of super duper hearing aids and blue tooth interface for her phone at work and her fancy android cell phone FREE of charge due to her work... you have to love free. The lord is truly merciful. We prayed and he answered Amen...
I fell blessed to be accepted into her work book study program. They are like a family to me.
All of my blood relatives with exception of one cousin and my youngest daughter are deceased.. And I have not seen my youngest daughter in over a year, so i need family bad..
Lexi comes by now and then and spends time with me so that's good.
Kim is Karen's sister and kind of a sister to me and Karen's best friend Sam is cool and treats me like family so I am not completely alone. My cousin
Jeanette that used to take care of me moved far away so i don't have her. I am sure that's why she introduced me to Karen to get out from under me lol
Karen's mom and brother are precious, but they live so far away we don't get to see them but once or twice a year. the same goes for her sister Lila that we don't get to see but once or twice a year. our friends Rhonda and David moved to Canyon lake, but we get to see them every few months. My good Friend James lives in Pennsylvania and i have not seen him and his lovely wife since 1995... My friend Mike I only see every 6th or 7th d\saturday for lunch and my friend Trey has a new job. Tim is driving a truck three weeks at a time and moved to Albany to escape my ex wife's wrath lol.]
So all in all it is mostly Karen and I. Which is a good thing I guess. Gives us time to bond. We enjoy each others company.
my muscles are getting worse. I get tired earlier in teh day. driving is becmming more difficult and my temper seems to be getting worse.
I have to pray more often to maintain composure. I want to scream and throw things and break stuff to relax, but i know it wont help so I just go online and blow stuff up and j\kill people virtually and let that satisfy my blood-lust... for now...
Call of duty black ops and black ops II I am RTTC EGORE A fear me hear me roar, then die LOL
We do pretty good most of the time.
south American and Canadian servers usually lag which gives them a one to two second advantage and sometimes we can't keep up, but we can beet most teams and clans even with the laging ...
WE don't cheat and don't mod but we do trash talk a lot,. most of the guys are handicapped/disabled in one way or another, many are military or prior military, combat trained so we can usually do well in a team environment three teams of two choking off the choke points and keeping the enemy pissed off lol.
clanrttc.com
anyway..... I need to get to work on my continuing education...
I used to be able to crank out 30 semester hours in 3 days. now it will probably take me two weeeks , wish me luck!
I am opening an insurance agency in Tuscola, either joining with the resident Progressive agent, or opening my own office after the first of the year.. If anyone needs life and health or annuities or burial final expense, come see me or visit my webpage,. http://franktoms.mymedicalquotes.com/HomePage.aspx
love you all, because God says I have to lol
One side effect of having this desease and writing a blog, is to remember, i have this blog lol....
I dont have anyone reminding me, so i only write in it when it comes to mind so to speak...
I receive alz newsletters from our local group that my wonderful wife and I are a member of and once a month from the national org news letter and as a former intern I get the Johns Hopkins news letter as well.
Sometimes I wish i would have actually finished my dream of becoming an MD. All those years of studying and working weird shifts for nothing. But i did have a lot of wonderful experiences in there mixed up with depressing ones lol. I just don't have that professional detachment required.I get to close to patients and take everything too personal. When one of them does not make it i take it personally. That time they unplugged our patient in New Mexico was the last straw for me. He came in with respiratory distress, they made mistakes, punctured his lung, sent him into cardiac arrest, put him on life support then unplugged him when they could not find next of kin or insurance proof.. Only to have them arrive 12 hours later and sue the hospital.... I walked out and never went back... There where way to many incidents where i lost my temper and over reacted to things as well since i could not detach myself from the patients.. Specifically domestic violence. so, I guess it is a good thing i went on to fly airplanes instead lol and eventually branch out to all these other weird things i do.. A propensity for languages , communications, computer and networking seems to be a strong point as well as logistics for me. My pleasures are acting , singing , dancing, performing arts of any kind playing any musical instrument, entertaining , being on stage or in the movies has always been where i am in my realm. I also love online gaming, specifically first person shooters and role playing games. strategy games. I also enjoy solving mysteries. we watch every type of crime and mystery show there is and I can usually figure it out before the second commercial lol.. I love insurance because i understand it and why we need it.. my weakness is understanding why everyone does not have it and how people can say no???
I have seen so many people suffer as a result of not having it and when they try so hard to justify why they dont have it all I hear is static..... it makes no sense to me...
anyway...
My health is not doing so well..
I have had some sort of issue from my throat to my but for about three months now.
I had my three year colonoscopy a hile back and have not been the same since...
I don't know if he infected me or what? but i had to take 5 antibiotic pills a day for 15 days that made me dizzy and nauseous and made it hard to drive, no dairy and no alcohol for 15 days ad well. alcahol not that big a deal, but my god half of what i eat has dairy in it...
well thatw over and now i had a CT scan and a bunch of blood work and so forth
they found abnormal cells in my duodenum so its more tests after new year..
I am at a loss since they where just in there a few months ago??
anyway... I feel like I swallowed a gerbil..
I seem to have constant diverticulitis and I.B.S. spastic colon, so that makes for interesting travel...
I cant swallow diet coke my favorite drink now for some reason... I think it is the bubbles??? I think i'm allergic to my tooth glue?
so old age and ad is not being nice to me lol.
I ran out of my arracept today and I pray my doctor can get me some since tricare said it will take until January 4th for mine to get here...
I love my Karen, but she forgets I have alz and expects me to call and order it when i run out. She said, i told you last week, i'm like, OK... um honey, I have Alzheimer s... remember?? that's what the medicine i ran out of is for... God bless her she is getting old too . She is so wonderful and I love her with all my heart. i had them put it on an auto refill today so that neither one of us will have to remember lol.
The holiday's are coming. I can't help but wonder if this is my last Christmas that I will remember?? and even If i will remember it. I vaguely remember last Christmas..
I have hated this season since I was 9.
I was taken from my mother on my 9th birthday and did not see her for almost a year. that first Christmas i spent alone in an orphanage. No presents, no songs, nothing.. three hots and a cot... All the other children had paces to go but me. Every Christmas after that until i got to go home I received girls toys because my Catholic name was Francis not frank. and people did not know that Francis is a boy and Frances is a girl so i got made fun of and got dolls and dresses for Christmas every year.. then, in 1997 my mother died on Christmas eve three hours after people burned my bar to the ground..... so no i don't like Christmas very much to begin with..
add the over commercialization over the past 20 years. now , every year we try to outdo the year before.
Harry potter had a good example of that on one of their movies where the little fat brat complained about having less than he had the year before yadda yadda... it is supposed to be about Jesus not money...
We spend too much money, put our self in horrible debt that we struggle to get out of for the rest of the year for what??
Buying material things for people is NOT LOVE, it does not take the place of a hug, holding them and telling them you love them forgiving them their transgressions, sitting with them and listening to them praying for and with them. sharing the word and meaning it. I dont know what happened to this country.
I pray i make another year on earth and know who I am.
I pray i get to see my children again before I forget who they are and who I am.
I pray I don't suffer a long painful death.
I love unconditionally and wish someone could love me the same way.
I miss relaxing
I miss having a cup of hot tea every nite before bed and at 6pm English style tea time..
I miss my mother beyond words.. we where a team,. frick and fack. Karen is so much like her perhaps i did marry my mother lol... they say men tend to seek out women that remind them of their mothers...
every now and then Karen gives me that look, the o\look only my mother ever managed to give me lol...
she shares her food the same way, and acts a lot like her she even likes the same food as my mom. kind of odd.. I did not know any of that when we met and fell in love, it all came out over the past 4 years.
I am so happy the lord blessed us with her 10,000.00 worth of super duper hearing aids and blue tooth interface for her phone at work and her fancy android cell phone FREE of charge due to her work... you have to love free. The lord is truly merciful. We prayed and he answered Amen...
I fell blessed to be accepted into her work book study program. They are like a family to me.
All of my blood relatives with exception of one cousin and my youngest daughter are deceased.. And I have not seen my youngest daughter in over a year, so i need family bad..
Lexi comes by now and then and spends time with me so that's good.
Kim is Karen's sister and kind of a sister to me and Karen's best friend Sam is cool and treats me like family so I am not completely alone. My cousin
Jeanette that used to take care of me moved far away so i don't have her. I am sure that's why she introduced me to Karen to get out from under me lol
Karen's mom and brother are precious, but they live so far away we don't get to see them but once or twice a year. the same goes for her sister Lila that we don't get to see but once or twice a year. our friends Rhonda and David moved to Canyon lake, but we get to see them every few months. My good Friend James lives in Pennsylvania and i have not seen him and his lovely wife since 1995... My friend Mike I only see every 6th or 7th d\saturday for lunch and my friend Trey has a new job. Tim is driving a truck three weeks at a time and moved to Albany to escape my ex wife's wrath lol.]
So all in all it is mostly Karen and I. Which is a good thing I guess. Gives us time to bond. We enjoy each others company.
my muscles are getting worse. I get tired earlier in teh day. driving is becmming more difficult and my temper seems to be getting worse.
I have to pray more often to maintain composure. I want to scream and throw things and break stuff to relax, but i know it wont help so I just go online and blow stuff up and j\kill people virtually and let that satisfy my blood-lust... for now...
Call of duty black ops and black ops II I am RTTC EGORE A fear me hear me roar, then die LOL
We do pretty good most of the time.
south American and Canadian servers usually lag which gives them a one to two second advantage and sometimes we can't keep up, but we can beet most teams and clans even with the laging ...
WE don't cheat and don't mod but we do trash talk a lot,. most of the guys are handicapped/disabled in one way or another, many are military or prior military, combat trained so we can usually do well in a team environment three teams of two choking off the choke points and keeping the enemy pissed off lol.
clanrttc.com
anyway..... I need to get to work on my continuing education...
I used to be able to crank out 30 semester hours in 3 days. now it will probably take me two weeeks , wish me luck!
I am opening an insurance agency in Tuscola, either joining with the resident Progressive agent, or opening my own office after the first of the year.. If anyone needs life and health or annuities or burial final expense, come see me or visit my webpage,. http://franktoms.mymedicalquotes.com/HomePage.aspx
love you all, because God says I have to lol
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