Hello everyone!

Yes I am still alive!

The walk this year was nice. I somehow survived lol. Thank you Everyone that came out and supported it. I would never be pretentious enough to think anyone other than my wonderful wife was there for me... However, I am still happy and grateful none the less...

This year NO one put any money into my account other than myself and Karen..
That was both a first and depressing.
Next year I plan on doing things differently I guess.
I will personally walk up to each and every one of you and get in your FACE, so be ready...
If that means I have to get in my truck and drive to your house REGARDLESS OF WHERE YOU LIVE, than so be it....
If I have to track you down like an animal to get and answer from you, even if its drop dead Frank, than I will...
Than I can eliminate you of my "so called" Friends list one by one...
Does that sound harsh??
perhaps??
however, I look at it this way...
For the past 50 years I have gone above and beyond to do my best to help every single person that I have come in contact with to the best of my abilities...
I gave, and gave, and gave and gave and gave.. Never ever asking in return...
now...
its my turn...
In the past three years alone I have emptied all my savings and retirement accounts and given away all our money to help other people and we lost the house KAren and I had saved money up to buy..
Our dream home..
We had already:
Saved up the down payment,
Filled out ALL the loan paperwork and been approved,
Put down a deposit on a unit to hold it...
Got an AWESOME unbelievable discount on a prefab building ( 49% off)
we had already zoned the property into two lots
already got the new address (1042 FM 613 Bar-T Ranch)
already marked off the new spots, flagged it all , marked it with sticks and rope and spray pain...
already made deposit for septic permit of 400.00 so I could install the septic myself ( outside city limits)
already coordinated with water, A.E.P. power, Taylor telephone, trash, post office etc...
all we had to do was drive down, hand them the rest of the cash down and sign paperwork, sign all the paperwork and start clearing the ground....
We where in the process of deciding which contractor to hire to clear the treas, put in the driveway,  help us put up the fences, put in the septic and plumbing ( was hoping Rick would help) lay the concrete foundation and driveway mix parking areas and move our storage buildings around..
I had solar and wind energy plans started and a plan to get the well cleaned out so we could put in both a wind mill pump and an electric backup pump.. I already figured out the filtration and storage tank systems.. We have since located a good source for above ground and in ground tornado shelter/storm rooms and green houses...

we where pretty much all ready to go and then BOOM

First one, then two then.... well.... it is all gone now....

I started working again , but I can only work one or two days a week right now until I can get back in the swing of things..

After two strokes, it might take me a while to get back in the saddle again...

Some day's I struggle to remember to separate the wondering thoughts so I can focus..
time is still slipping away from me in the mornings, so I work mostly in the afternoon..
I can make 100-300 in just a few hours so.... If I can get in a few days a week I should be able to get back on my feet in a few weeks to a month???

I still find it amusing that, even with stage 4 alz, I am still so much farther ahead than most of the people around me??? I never considered myself that smart???? Yet it seems as if very few people can keep up with most of what I am thinking or saying... some can keep up with some of it.. but I have yet to meet anyone that can keep up with all of it....
It is actually a bit lonely...
I miss scorpion type environments..... Being around like minds was fun...

But I do NOT  like being controlled by the government and being told how to use my mind and what to use it for.....

I am trying to get like mids together in January for a new Scorpion type group, BUT, it will be home based....

Everyone will be based out of their home offices ( except me part of the time)....

I am the free roamer for now...

We might have satellite techs out there on site being our eyes later?? or install techs or whatever like Lexi....people that can go to the site and be our eyes...

Lexi Is very, very good at on site work when she focuses on it..

I pray that, whatever is wrong with me physically, is treatable enough, to get me back to work full time soon.

I received a call today from Time insurance..
They requested that I get serious about recruiting agents for individual medical sales and group medical sales because I am not the primary sales agent for Hendrix Medical Center?????
CRAP!!! That JUST sunk in lol..

OK, I better TRY to get some sleep lol...

night all
(PS: those of you that I Know ONLY as gamer, technical contracting work, via the theater or other "social outlet" and not personally as in person.. don't expect me to show up in person...." necessarily "... lol)

May god bless you all, even those of you that have not been here for us... Love you unconditionally..

Frank..
AKA EGORE, Tom, Tom Tom, Frankie, Snake, poppo, Carrot Top, Snappy-Tom, Spider-man, Wing man.. Phoenix, Ghost, Grey Ghost, playboy, November , sierra hotel, Sahara ops,  Oscar charlie mike, Frankenstein, and many, many others....

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I am ALIVE!!

Hello out there in reality land
It has been a VERY long time since I was in here.
My trip down teh rabit whole has been interesting this last year.
Two strokes and some other illnesses have distracted me as well.
So,
catch up time?
(please excuse my typo's, if i try to fix all of them, i will lose my train of though to many times, and never get this done..)

well, time is still getting away from me. more so I guess.
I get up at 6:30-6:45 in the morning with my wife when she gets up to go to work.
Then i either lay in bed and surf on my phone or my android tablet. or I get up and go to the office in the middle of the house.
latley, the next thing I know the 11:00 ocklock alarm to go have lunch with Karen is going off, and I am trying to figure out where the time went.
Concentration is not a good thing either.
If i take my pills at nite and in th emorning and I eat rite and so forth I am.... OK... But I still srat to "fade out" after about 2 in the afternoon..
the farther it gets past 2, the harder it is for me to concentrate, and the more tired I get.
Getting distracted is easy. Reading complex technical directions is giving me migraines.
Trying to work in the afternoon really wears me out.
Things I have been doing for years seems so difficult now.
I don't dare drive far at night.
I dont dare drive away from the Abilene area alone...
I can not seem to find a realiable assistant that will show up every day at 7am, so I guess it is retirement time..
I can not get the respect I need from anyone that attempts to work for me, so I will not tolerate anything less..
This is my lifes work
I spent 40 years of my life building a reputation and a skill set and advanced experience level not to mention the report I have with all my clients. Some of the guys I used to work with in the field now own their own corperations and service companies , or manage portals that route work to techs and Engineers , so I am known world wide..
. I'll be damned if I am going to let some young person come in here with a half kocked idea set, a little knowlege a little skill and destroy whats left of my 2 commpanies..
I already lost 2 of my companies due to my ex and letting my good nature talk me into hireing people against my better judgment..
I had to close them and open up under another name...
My Clients know It is still me, but some of the end users did not want to associate with some of the techs I had been using, so I had to reorganise..
then, over the past 6 years I have had more setbacks..
so my dream of a legacy looks pretty much shot...

I have good days and bad days with my alz
good day's I almost forget I have it..
bad days, I just want to stay in  bed..
I feel so stupid, and usless..
I can not remember a thing..
I am so embarassed..
I can not concentrate, I can not read, can not write, can not type and some days I cant even speak properly.
people talk to me and it is like Charlie brown...
My poor wife gives me " The look"
lately I am having difficulty swallowing
I have had isssues with odd sudden dizzy spells off and on and occasionaly falling..
The past 6 months i can not walk very far at all without getting completely worn out and having to sit, or lay down. out of beath and exhausted..
I get confused sometimes... It has started to actually scare me..
and lately I have to focus on seperating day dreams from reality
I get to drifting off, and have to come back....

Sleeping is difficult.. I am never actually sure when I am actually asleep... sometimes I wonder if I actually go to sleep, or just close my eyes...
The other day, I was up for over 24 hours... now THAT day I knew I went to sleep, because when the phone rang, I could not move my arms or legs when i woke up...Dreaming while actually asleep can get interesting if Karen runs out of slow mag..
Since I have PTSD, add ALZ and WOW I can have some interesting 3D technicolor exhaustive nightmares... I wake up soaking wet with sweat, freezing and my heart racing and pounding...
I am still able to get out of it farely fast at this point...
But, recovery seems to be taking longer now....
I dread the day I get stuck in one of my daydreams...
I live in fear of falling all theway down the rabbit whole, and not remembering my familly.
I do not want to be a burdaen on anyone.
I do not want to get violent..
I am a large, strong, well trained combat vet.. As a child I was a boxer,  I studied martial arts for over 30 years, was in the military 25. I grew up in the streets of New Jersey, and New York, so I know how to take person down...
I would not want to hurt anyone...
I have become extreemly close to my God these past 4 years, and am at peace with him.
I pray I slip into alz peacfully and do not cause any heart-ships..
I have this feeling Karen will be in there with me....
she appears to be getting a few of the symptoms, and is in denyal..
I love her so much, no words could explain...

I find myself speaking in Russian when I am upset??
no idea why..
I am forgetting a lot of things except music..
but U seem to have forgoten how to read music???
I can tell you what the notes are.. but I can no longer ue the music sheets to play songs????
I find that oddd considering I have been playing music since I was 4??
of course I have not played an instrument using a music sheet since Germany in 1994.

I SERIUOSLY miss a few odd things
music
acting
singing
dancing, both on stage, and at dance places like oplin.
comedy, I used to love standing up and telling jokes and making people laugh..
The opra
The philharmonic

FISHING

and a few other things I don't want to start crying about..

I am sorry i have been gone, but hey, I forgot... lol
I'm back
I'll put an alarm on my cell to get in here and type some more
art walk is thursday nite

THE walk to end Alzheimer s is the 20th I will be there with my wonderful wife Karen...
It would be nice to see some mooolah in my walk account before then..
But I dont imagine there will be any, unless I put it in there..
We have been helping so many people over the past 2 years.
Then, over the past 2 weeks, we where in a bind. NO one stepped up.
Praise God some money showed up that a client owed me.
otherwise it could have been bad...
But that's OK, because now we know to stop helping those people, and perhaps focus our efforts elsewhere...

I neeed to go through this blog and make notes
I am suposed to have something written for the walk to presnt?? I guess?
See you all there??

I am Alive

Hello everyone,

     I am sorry that I have not been on in quite some time.
I have been both busy and distracted.
I renewed my insurance license and am also undergoing many many hospital tests do determine my brain status and cancer status as it where..
I have more skin growns and head pain and concentration "issues".

Memory comes and goes apparently accordingly with my consumption of coconut oil, more oil,, better memories, less oil, less memories.....

some days my brain fells like it is going to just shut down so i lat down and just rest and try to sleep..
Some days I'm a sharp as a scalpel and others as dull as the leading edge of a basketball...

Skin issues making me nervous, they found more polups in me and send them off for bopsi and i had a Brain mri last week and more doctors visits than I can keep up with.
Thank God for Karen! I am so confused I am not sure where I am supposed to be or what I am supposed to be doing half the time..
I keep thinking that i need to come up with a system, but never do...
I used to have dailey planners and lists and so forth
but now i can't seem to manage them, find them remember to use them or even remember if i have one lol
Karen texts me.
We have airset.com but she does not like using it for some reason?
So i quit paying for it..
It is only l;ike4.00 a month, and it send messages to my email and phone as often as we tell it too
I have an android hone that I am finally able to use well.
It was interesting figuring out all the things it can do..
As a tech expert you would think i would have picked up on it sooner, but for some reason there are some things i can't pick up on for some rason
anything apple for one think I have some kind of aversion to all things apple.. except apples themselves lol and apple pie and cobbler of course :)
I guess since teh old Atari day's when they where " the enamy" It has carried over from 1980???
don't like them wont use them only tried to repair them for about a year and quit..
I had to hire richard to teach me how to even turn them on and use the stupid software to find anything , and then they changed it lol..
so NO nothing apple for me Sorry Steve, rest your soul, you where a nice guy, but i don't like your stuff man...

kind of like Xbox verses ps3, your either one or the other and seldom both...
I NEVER would have bought anything Nintendo until I moved in with Karen, now we have every gaming system there is and at least two of each type ... except apples of course..
I got the ps3 for me only to watch blue ray since it costs the same as a blue ray player at the time and now I game on it sometimes as well.. we all have a ps2 connected to our flat screen TV's and and Xbox of course, and Karen and I have ps3's. we all have some sort of hand held like psp,ds, 3d ds etc... or two or three, and kindles and android tablets and of course android phones..
I don't use them all that much, but Karen is amazing to watch... Especially at our age... she games almost constantly from the time she wakes up until just before her head hits teh pillow... while we eat, while we watch TV.... it is truly amazing to watch, from time to time you can catch her playing her dragons on up toe 4 devices at teh same time!!! LOL
I spend hours in here trying to read emails, trying to learn and trying to email.
It takes so darn long to do any of the above..
I try to game on my Xbox as it helps me relax and socialize with my Xbox friends, I am in a gaming clan and have over 100 friends that I game with (www.clanrttc.com).

Well crap ,  lunch time gotta jet, got to take lunch to my awesome wife and then ill be back!!!!
Filling out 10 pages of anoying questions for another specialist
laters..

repost of coconut video

Holiday's

Hello everyone,
     I pray everyone had a satisfactory Christmas. We tried our best here to have one. We ended up having to take two of us to the ER before the day was over, but everyone is OK..
Kim left today. Lexi has been here for days and that is always nice even if she is sick. At least we get to see her. We all dressed up in Christmas cloths and wore silly musical hats, opened our presents had Christmas meals and so forth. Everyone seemed pleased with what they received and overall it was a pretty good day.
Karen has not received her bonus yet, and my checks are late so we where not able to do everything we wanted to do. I guess we can just do it when the money finally arrives?
We are all home sick today, Karen came home from work yesterday and got worse over night. I pray she gets better soon.
I have an egd scheduled for the 14th of next month to continue in my diagnoses prognoses. I am still having issues swallowing and keeping anything in me. They did find abnormal cells during my cat scan.

My muscles still lock up now and then and driving is still difficult but not impossible. Sun-downers is a bummer and it comes early some days.
I wish i could just pull the cotten out of my head and move on...
i have to find a way to get 30 semester hours in before the 5th of January, wish me luck lol.

I am signing on with a couple insurance companies again and planning to open an insurance agency in Tuscola and Abilene after the first. wish me luck there as well..
I have a site already up for Texas life and health Frank Toms insurance agency click me!!
I hope i can get back into that, it is alot less work and the pay is ok..
I have not seen my daughter in a while .
It is making me crazy. but God is helping me..
I hope everyone has an awesome holiday season and the new year brings new and better things to all of us.
I need to go lay down again.
God bless you all
Frank

Annual Wellness Recomendations

	Forward to a Friend December 26, 2012
		Association releases Medicare Annual Wellness Visit recommendations The Alzheimer's Association has released guidance to help health care providers detect cognitive impairment as part of the Medicare Annual Wellness Visit. Physicians are required to include detection of cognitive impairment as part of the visit, but there had been no comprehensive guidance to them on how to accomplish it. Read the article >> Type of caregiver may play a role in clinical trial participation People with Alzheimer's disease with adult children or other non-spouses serving as caregivers may be under-represented in clinical trials, and spousal caregivers may be over-represented, which could impact study results, a new study shows. Among their findings, researchers said that fewer adult child and non-spouse caregivers lived with the person with Alzheimer's, which suggests increased logistical challenges to participating in research. Read the article >> Learn about Alzheimer's Association TrialMatch® >> Respite care can help Alzheimer's caregivers recharge Caregiving brings physical, mental and emotional challenges. Everyone can use a break; respite services also can support and strengthen caregivers' ability to continue taking care of family members or friends with Alzheimer's. Learn about respite care >> Caregiver resource links Alzheimer's Behaviors >> Caregiver Stress Check >> Comfort Zone® >> Coping with Alzheimer's >> Daily Care >> Find a Clinical Trial >> Long-Distance Caregiving >> Music, Art and Other Therapies >> Support Groups >> Planning Ahead >> Stop by our brain gym Exercise your brain and test your skills. Solve today's puzzle >> What is Alzheimer's Disease | Know the 10 Signs of Alzheimer's | Brain Tour The Alzheimer's Association is the leading voluntary health organization in Alzheimer's care, support and research. Our mission is to eliminate Alzheimer's disease through the advancement of research; to provide and enhance care and support for all affected; and to reduce the risk of dementia through the promotion of brain health. Alzheimer's Association National Office 225 N. Michigan Ave., Fl. 17, Chicago, IL 60601 © 2012 Alzheimer's Association. All rights reserved. www.alz.org |  800.272.3900  To change your email preferences click here.

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